For me, being a working musician right now is more about fighting my own doubts than it is even fighting other people’s doubts. It means taking any and every hit that is thrown at me, and using it in a positive way. It means not being consumed by the “no’s” but being thankful for the “yes’s.” It means knowing my limits and taking a step back when I have reached them…but it also means pushing myself harder sometimes so I don’t stay stagnant. It means feeling things…which is not always fun, but it sure does make a sunset that much more beautiful. I’m not really sure what the next step is, or what the big picture looks like. I have no idea where my music is going to take me. What I do know is that it doesn’t matter. I don’t need to know the big-picture-end-game plan. I just need to trust that God has me here for a reason. I need to trust that there actually is a big-picture-end-game plan.
And I guess everything else can just fade away.